Emo day.

Had brief talk with one of my coursemates yesterday during the computer class.
I couldn't recall how but we did chat about a past chinese new year and her memorable gambling experience. In the onrush of impulse she slapped on her cousin's face upon being too stressed over the victory of the game. Furiously she was condemned by her family on the spot. And then she packed her bag and went home, sobbed out what had happened to her mommy.As soon as two days after, she and her cousin buried the hatchet. Reading the demure sweetness of her face and smile, I kind of comprehend why this girl could have been so nice, understanding and easy-going nowadays.Ya, if life has been a bed of roses all the while, we won't grow and the kindness in us, won't glitter.
She was 14 or 15 that time. It's an era which we all see eye to eye with each other that, when we were that young, we were once that easy to forget and get happy. Unlike now, although have been better a lot in terms of appearance and whatever things, have only become more confident. Happier? Nope.
More and more departures come in, more and more burdens lay on the shoulder.We have been moving from the beautiful imagination of fairy tales once told by the adults, into the broken dream pieces of an adult's reality. Lonesome, disappointment, impossibility.All are cruelly, authentic.
It was dizzling, again in UTM, when I took away dinner from Cengal Archade back to my hostel. Definitely not a cheerful weather wasn't it. The world always turns into a silent mode when it rains. So do I. Especially when the occurances around me have been a bit hurtful recently. I didn't feel like saying anything at the moment.I just wished to walk, and walk, non-stop stepping forward, that I forgot to furl my umbrella even after entering sheltered hostel living room for quite some time. Trying to laugh at ease, at my blurriness, I proceeded going upstairs, till reaching my room. Couldn't really finish eating the food. The raindrops outside and as well inside me, made me lose usual appetite.Opening my chatbox to seek for those two friends I regularly confide in. One of them has entered university as I do, another one changed job and has been busy like a bee all day of late.Both of them were not there. Could just hug myself with a tight slumber and let all gloomy dusty things subside.
After waking up, I felt much better. Haiz, please don't rain anymore when I don't ask for it.